Why didn't he try anything?

You know something I've always wondered... One of Eric's main goals in life, it seemed, was to get laid. I don't know whether or not he ever truly longed for love, but he really wanted to have sex. Even one of the things he wrote about was his fantasy of charming a girl, getting her to go down to his basement, and then raping her. Or at the very least, having rough sex, since he spoke of overpowering the girl and "indulging" himself.

It might be more common than some people think to have rape fantasies, but Eric seemed like the type that would seriously commit the act. Obviously, since he was capable of murder. Especially towards the end of his life, when he wrote of trying really hard to get laid but not getting anywhere. I've always been surprised that he didn't attempt anything with Susan, the girl he hung out with days before the massacre. She was like the perfect opportunity for Eric.

I mean, she came over to his house. They were there for 4 hours, and his parents weren't even home for the first couple of hours. The most daring thing that he did that night was kiss her on the cheek and put his arm around her. He was a perfect gentleman. I wouldn't have expected Eric to attack the girl or anything, since doing so would have gotten him in major trouble. Their plan to murder hundreds of students would have been ruined. But the fact that he didn't even try to kiss her? Make out? Anything?

He must have respected Susan a lot, because that truly puzzles me. I also used to wonder why they didn't take advantage of the situation and sexually assault a student at Columbine before they killed themselves. I'm sure they must have known that it would take a while for the SWAT team to reach their area of the building, that there was time for them to have their way. But I figure, when your adrenaline is up and you are blasting people left and right with your gun, the last thing on your mind is sex...no matter how horny you've been up until that day.

Sites pertaining to Columbine

I'll keep adding to this post as I find more sites...

4/29/99
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-srv/national/daily/april99/antisocial04299.htm

9/23/99
http://www.salon.com/news/feature/1999/09/23/journal/index.html

This is an interesting site, lots of stuff I've never seen before.
http://www.columbine-wiki.net/wiki/Main_Page

A few fans site...
http://rebandvodka_gurl4life.webs.com/
http://www.freewebs.com/rememberreb/ 

This song makes me think if him.

I've been on a Fear Factory kick lately. Since this came out in 1998, I've been wondering if Eric and Dylan ever listened to it. Every little thing leads to a "what if" involving Eric and Dylan, it's crazy. I know they were major KMFDM and Rammstein fans, but maybe they blasted some Fear Factory in their car or at their shooting sessions in the woods. Guess we'll never know. :-\

Random Thoughts

I want to start off by saying that I don't think what Eric and Dylan did was right or excusable at all. It's incredibly tragic what happened on April 20, 1999. Countless relatives and friends of the victims had their lives dramatically changed forever, due to Eric and Dylan's shocking and selfish actions...However, I've been fascinated by the Columbine incident ever since it happened. I think about both Eric and Dylan quite often as I go through everyday life, but Eric Harris is the main person in my thoughts. My infatuation has been on and off for a little over 12 years. It's not a daily thing thankfully, but even if I manage to go several months with hardly a thought of Columbine, the daydreaming always returns. It's so much worse than any "real" crush I've ever had. I've been fantasizing about Eric Harris now everyday for over 6 months, longest period of time yet. And I don't care how ridiculous this sounds, I feel I'd do anything in the world to somehow, someway, meet Eric Harris. Time travel, somehow altering past events, channeling the spirits, me dying and going to hell...I know this will never happen of course.

I just don't understand the girls at Columbine, and how they basically looked right past him and had no interest. Even once he stopped dressing preppy and hanging with the nerds, and he started to change and show a very dark side, I always thought many girls were intrigued by this sort of behavior? The "bad boy"? And he was so handsome, how the hell did he never get laid? I would have probably stalked his ass...Every time I go back to a video, a diary, an interview that I've viewed countless times, I often discover and piece together things that I did not notice before. Eric and Dylan are such a mystery to this day. Perhaps they wanted it that way. Sure, they left behind plenty of stuff to work with such as their journals and recorded footage. But they must have known that some mystery will create endless debates and theories for years to come...Anyways, I figure that since I think about Eric Harris so often, and I haven't come across many recent blogs allowing people to discuss their thoughts on Columbine, people can do that here.


Hopefully Eric Harris has a doppelganger out there somewhere because I would love to meet him...Does anyone else feel this way?