You know what really sucks about not believing in God?...In my mind, I will never meet Eric in the afterlife. I don't believe there's a heaven, hell, anything. Yet meeting Eric is something I want more than anything. He's the only thing that could possibly motivate me to have some faith for once.
That or someone will have to invent time traveling in my lifetime.
Do you feel like he's the only one for you? Like a soulmate? That's how I feel. I seem to fall for guys I can never have, but hopefully, that will change someday. Except for the fact that he killed *innocent* people, I love him.
ReplyDeletedo you know the he is a nazi??
Deleteand nature selection so if you are over 80 YOU SHOULD DE DEAD
How can you "love him" if you've never met him????
DeleteAlso if anything he was a neo-nazi, all the actual Nazis are dead. Also "Natural Selection" can be interpreted in many different ways.
They werent really nazis, but he admired them.
DeleteHow about reincarnation?
ReplyDeleteI honestly do feel like he would have been perfect for me. I'm sure there are a lot of awesome guys out there who would seem "perfect" for me as well, but I've secretly compared Eric to all the guys I've dated in the past. Luckily my last bf was into the Columbina stuff too, so he didn't think I was disturbed or anything lol...
ReplyDeleteI'd like to keep an open mind when it comes to think like reincarnations, but I think I'd have more luck contacting his spirit somehow. Weird that I highly doubt the presence of God, but I believe in the possibility of ghosts and haunted places.
I was just thinking the same thing the other day, actually. That no body in my life will ever compare to how I feel about Eric, even though I know he's dead and I'll never meet him. Even though I'm an atheist and I don't believe in god or anything, I sometimes wish i did, you know? So that I could feel good about living, knowing I would see him when I died.
ReplyDeleteI often daydream about time traveling and meeting Eric in his time... It would be great. And like any other person like us, he seems perfect. I feel like not only is he perfect for me, but I would be perfect for nm. You know? Someone who thinks like him, and believes in the same things... I've yet to meet someone I can talk to about columbine. And I've yet to find someone who could even remotely be compared to Eric on my scale.
At school, we had our weekly meeting this afternoon (usually we have it Monday mornings), and it was about anti-bullying. One of my counselors warned me that they were going to show a clip of the Columbine reenactment, so I decided not to go because it would fire up my obsession. I know this sounds crazy and ridiculous, but I've recently begun comparing myself to Eric, grade-wise. He was a good student, but from what I've read in an article, he never made the honor roll. I've gotten all different marks in high school (I had special ed. help). My case manager from 9th to 11th grade didn't help me much. But when I switched to another case manager, I made the honor roll. I don't know how I did it. I wish I had worked harder in school instead of putting off homework for my real interests. I should've just gotten my assignments out of the way before doing anything else. I've gotten help from my case manager, but I didn't have enough self-discipline. I don't know or think anyone else has done or does this, but I used to be infatuated with fictional characters. I'd imagine what they would do in situations that they've never been in. That was one of my interests. I don't know why I did it. I still do sometimes, but hopefully someday, I'll completely stop it. I think I might have Fantasy Prone Personality disorder (check Wikipedia for that).
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I wish I had more motivation in school instead of being lazy and giving up. That's why I want to go back to college, to prove that no matter how boring or difficult something is, I can learn about it and succeed. I'm not sure if Eric was interested in ALL of his classes. I heard he was gifted like Dylan, but Dylan got slightly worse grades than Eric.
Well, I have to go. Maybe this weekend if I remember, I'll tell you MY reasons why I'm obsessed with him if you're interested or have time. See ya.
All of you girls who are in love with Eric... keep in mind that he was incapable of love or emotion. That is the nature of psychopaths. He would have seen you as nothing more than a tool or an object, although he may have manipulated you into thinking he liked you. Ultimately, though, he would have no problem whatsoever shooting you right the face and laughing, right after you proclaimed your love to him.
ReplyDeleteBut people such as you are absolutely not capable of detecting psychopathy. Your just a dumbass who believes all the shits the media are telling.
DeleteHe actually made a tape where he express his remorse for the pain that will bring to his parents when they learn what he have done.
I do not think he was incapable of love. You're an idiot. Nobody gave him the chance to love, if you recall he got turned down time after time. Who knows? Maybe he could have loved Susan! But it was already too late. NBK was already set to go down.
ReplyDeleteHe had a prom date, moron. He didn't give a fuck about love. He appreciated hate and a god-complex
DeleteSusan DeWitt wasnt his prom date.They never even showed up to the prom. They just hung out at his house. I disagree that he didnt care about love. I think he really cared for Susan and even mentioned her in their goodbye video. I think she really cared about him as well. The letter she wrote to him was absoutely heartbreaking. I also dont believe he had that much of a god complex. He had pretty low self esteem which you can see in Eric in Columbine video when the jocks or whatever they were walked past him and he put his head down. This is only one example of his low self esteem issues. The more Eric said he was god was perhaps a way for him to build up self confidence. The more someone says somehting, the more they start to believe it.
DeleteEric had a god complex for sure (not a bad thing tho) but he defiantly did. He even refured to him self as a god many times
DeleteYou girls are seriously sick and twisted individuals. This psychopathic monster of a kid KILLED 13 INNOCENT people in cold blood and had fun while doing it. As a student of forensic psychology I fear for your mental health. I hope your parents keep a close eye on you invade you should ever attempt to re-create what the worthless disgusting piece of shit object of your insane obsession did. You girls are pathetic and absolutly sick.
ReplyDeleteThere's no reason to call people who are fascinated with Eric sick and twisted, pathetic. I would like to point out that Eric was never proved as a physcopath so we cant know for sure if he was one or not. For your information he also didnt kill 13 people. Dylan killed some of those people. And Just because some people are fascinated with Columbine and Eric Harris doesnt mean we are going to go NBK as well. I also dont think Eric is a worthtless disgusting piece of shit. There is no doubt that he was mentally unstable but I do believe deep down he was a good person who could have gone far in life. Dylan too. And it's really sad they along with their victims will never get the chance.
DeleteP.S. If you have an intense hatered for Eric than why are you posting on this website???
It is a little frightening to me that a student of forensic psychology such as yourself can make such statements. Please do the mental health field, which I am also in... a favor and resign immediately.
DeleteThese views you have shared are very common, but you are entering a field filled with tons of pieces of shit that you will need to invest in.
The reason you scare me? There are a few.
While in a drug group, I was called suicidal because I did huffing when I had no money. Nothing has hurt me so much --well, at that point-- and it broke my heart. This woman had no experience.
You know not what you speak of and in this profession, when you have such intense feelings that you obviously cannot put away, it is poison.
When a (pre)teen and on, I was "insane" - your standard.I had intense anger, much like Harris. Add a journal. My life had been filled with torment in every direction; abuse of all classic types, abandonment issues, physical handicap that got me made fun of on a constant basis and made my unfortunate situation requiring me to care for myself and my suicidal mother -- much harder. Hatred was not even enough. I was a disaster waiting to happen.
Do you know what stopped me from becoming Eric Harris? I mean, I had a set up. Bars to lock the doors. Guns. A friend just as angry and just as capable of distruction, who knew how to make explosives - his name was David Eric (last name not needed). It was going to happen. I was going to do what I felt I needed to do. My memory would be one of infamy - a psychop Many of the pages were marked in blood.
Someone ratted on me.
I was so young that they sent me to a treatment facility. My therapist decided not to call police, probably not good professionally, but spared legal trouble. I played my part.
First was the "you cant help me" bullshit. Time passed, I "gave in" - they thought. Then, according to plan, I "tried" methods, I was "stuck anyways". A few weeks of that and "I cant believe how that worked! My anger...I was able to control it" -- I had fought a girl over drugs.
I, like Eric, talked my way out. The whole time in my mind, laughing my ass off at how stupid and gullable supposed professionals were. People -- I know like the back of my hand. For such a long time I used it in the same wicked, manipulative way as Eric. I even had my own Dylan. I had everything I needed.
Once out, I was blacklisted at my school. Again, lucky the police were not involved. The fact I had a meth habit and mental illness - both which had been "treated" - and I was in "drop-out" process. It's amazing how words can get you out of anything. ANYTHING.
Then I changed. It took a very, very long time. But my anger started to shape. I started to realize who I had the potential to be. Who the people I hated had the potential to be.
The girl who could have killed many without anything but joy...is now someone who can no doubt be considered a "bitch" but would do anything for anyone.
I can't even watch an old lady take her groceries inside. Any, and I mean any, pain or complications I see people go threw grasps me in such an empathetic way I can have my day ruined if I don't do what I feel in my heart to be the right thing.
My POINT:
Please don't judge people like this. If you want to go into that field of work, if you want to do your job in a way that benefits, realize we don't know everything and people -- they change.
Why was I obsessed with death? I don't know.
Why murder? Why Eric and Dylan? I don't know.
But I know that I changed. Or, shaped into the real me. For whatever reasons, I blocked myself and everyone else and almost ended up dead with bodies of others around me. Still, even I don't understand. But it taught me that things we don't understand are things we need to be most thoughtful of.
Thank you and may you be free of suffering.
-Lynn
I was about to say the same thing but Lynn beat me to it . :) . Perfect words.and then found out who wrote it smiled words from an Angel:)
DeleteNow that I know about Lynn Ann, I am really regretting using my nickname. And in all honesty I am seriously hoping that is not what you mean by "found out who wrote it" -- cause she didn't. I did. Names Lindsay, nice to meet you...uh,fellow no name anon that will more than likely never be on here again cause you have more of a life than I happen to.
DeleteIf you ever post again let me know I'd like to talk
DeleteTravis - Honestly I have no clue who is being addressed here. The OP? Me? (The one who wrote a long ass comment.) It's kind of entertaining to think you might have meant the poster of the whopping 2 sentence reply. IF YOU MEAN ME just hit me right the fuck up. If not let's pretend this didn't happen Lmfao.
DeleteFirst Harris would have asked you if you believe in God, then when you say "I have faith" he would shoot you in the head. So shut the fuck up.
ReplyDeleteNo.
DeleteDude, this comment was made in 2012? The question mark is an expression of disappointment that someone so very close to 2013 would say something so....wrong.
No one knows for sure just how many people were asked that question, or how many were asked if they wanted to die. The questions they asked had nothing to do with answers, only the fact they were forcing an answer.
There IS someone who said "yes" that survived. Because...the answer meant nothing aside from the fact they got to "play god" -- truly, look it up. The internetsss. In 2013. Has answers. There. In it.
Click. Click. No pow. Look.
There.
I have faith in the internet. Sometimes. Like police. Win some...lose most.
--Lynn
Cassie didn't pull the trigger -- as Flyleaf said.
DeleteAs a matter of fact, the ONLY one confirmed to have been asked (said yes) is alive. Luckily considering it was accidental.
POINT
It didn't matter of you believed in god.
Eric Harris wanted to BE god. He chose. He allowed life....he did NOT attack everyone he saw. Teased, yes.
" I went to Purdue Calumet, a decent University. If you went to Harvard or something I ttake it back...maybe "
ReplyDeleteYou can't be serious that a reputable University allowed you in with that kind of logic. You have to compare universities to see who wins every argument? Are you really that stupid? Plus you're a history major at a low tier school so stfu.
Several annoying comments, all for ME? Why THANK you! And yeah, I'd say if someone from Harvard were having a discussion with me, they might have a SLIGHT edge considering their extremely high-quality education.
ReplyDeleteAnd considering I'm making good money now working as a writer at the Times, I'd say history was a pretty good choice. Guess it's ok that I didn't go to Yale like I'm sure you did! :-)
ReplyDelete80 kg
ReplyDeleteI almost ended up another Dylan Klebold. I felt so much anger and hate for people. I often fantisied how I would kill a victim and hide the body. However, I found ways to cope with my anger. Yeah, I'm still a misanthrope. Although I know I would never harm someone. Being an artist, I can vent those emotions. Now I am an animation student, and life is looking up.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on your truthfulness and openly discussing your feelings for Eric..
ReplyDeleteI myself, feel much the same. I think the most common misconception is that we're all "kids" or in high school, which is utterly ridiculous. On one hand, it likely has roots in wanting to "save" Eric and Dylan. Or, we can understand their reasons and experienced an awful school life. This doesn't make us uncaring, horrible people.
I can't speak for all Eric fans, but I, personally, think their actions were disgusting. Murder of innocents is never acceptable..but Eric's personality, his smile captivated me from day one. April 20, 1999. I was still in high school, and when I saw his picture on the news that night; it began a very long obsession for me.
I don't think it will ever go away, frankly I don't want it to. He's a huge part of my life.
I really do hope that you all get to meet him on the other side or through reincarnation...
ReplyDeleteAnd that he then shoots and kills you.
Fucking die. You can't love someone you have never met, dead or alive, mass murderer or not (although "murder" is a strong word for the situation). Be honest, if he was not a famous school shooter and you met him irl not knowing who he was, would you actually like him? Probably not. You only think you like him because you are trying to be edgy or you pity him.
The only i think that Girls, is so sad you love to someone you never Hug, smell, touch. The only hope that They have is find to the double of Eric of something equal him, the same face ect. I unnderstand Girls but there live the reality fall in love of Boys your can touch, Hug ect. That Boys give love is the same form yours give to them, Eric Harris is dead is something your never changed.
ReplyDeleteYou know, people like you make me fucking sick, and I'm not talking about the columbiners. To bully and a torment a young man for years and years only for him to snap and hurt the others that made him insane and call him the monster. Yet you wonder why shootings happen. Don't call the people who look up to Eric for his motivational writing sick or call them fucked up for the fact they can recognise him as a human. Maybe you should read some of his work once and a while.
ReplyDeleteHe shot children. There is no way around this. What he did was fucked. There is no justification for what he did. None.
ReplyDeleteTry telling that to the families who had their children shot. Killing them is not the answer. That's fucked, and if you believe that they 'deservedly, then you're fucked, too.