To all the bored people leaving rude (annoying) comments, I find it funny that I'M supposedly the one that needs a life, yet you're the ones leaving garbage in the comment sections? On posts several months old? I rarely even update this thing anymore, so if you want to try to ruffle some feathers, try youtube!
And also, you will never make another person see your viewpoint by resorting to name-calling and arrogant "I'm more informed" attitudes...never, never, neeever have I claimed to be an expert on the mental problems he MAY have had. As I have SAID in a previous post, this is simply a place for me to rant! To say whatever the fuck I want! And I don't need a reason for it!
Don't like it? I won't lose any sleep over it.
So for the past couple of months I have been so obsessed with Eric Harris, one of the columbine killers. It went for morbid curiosity, to deciding that I love him, to becoming obsessed with him. I have to admit, that I am in love with a dead mass murderer, and that in of itself is unhealthy. Anyways, I am so obsessed with Eric Harris and the columbine massacre, and I'm not sure what to do about it. I even decided that I'm going to kill myself on April 20th. I carved ERIC into my arm, so deep that I probably need stitches, but i don't want to show anyone. I cry about the fact that he's dead, and I'll never meet him. I spent 2 hours trying to find his house on google maps, and I know all the schools he ever went to, in what grade and year. I read his journal, his autopsy report, his websites, and even downloaded his Doom wads. I don't know what to do, because all I think about all day is him, and my family thinks its sick that I love him. Should I be repulsed by the thought of Eric Harris? What if I don't want to give up my obsession?
ReplyDeleteBy the way, don't say anything like you need to see a psychiatrist, cause I already have one :P I see her weekly.
I'm going to say this if by chance you have come back to this site. I want to say that:
DeleteI suspect you are between the ages of 13-16. Between these ages, you will feel an unrealistic ideal of a guy you've never met. This usually happens with celebrities and young girls. I know because I was one. What you are attracted to is the spectacle of the event of Columbine, and you probably feel sympathy for them because you don't know better. Yes, some have chosen to forgive them for their deeds, but in reality, you just know of a few things Eric did in his life...you didn't know him. I would be grateful if I were you, even if you don't see it. The Columbine Tragedy over the years has developed to be an iconic event, this is probably because this was the first live shooting being broadcast on tv everywhere at the time, and there were 2 suspects, in an affluent town, and the myth is that they were bullied. Sure to some extent they were, but the truth of the matter is...you are obsessed an illusion. Truth be told my dear, if you were in the library that day, he would have shot you too no matter what you did. He was a sick individual, and he did need help, sociopath type help. I really hope one day you realize that there is nothing to idolize him for. Nothing.
I think its very brave of you to come out to the world with this and i salute you and say thank you
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you know that Eric and Dylan fucked each other and he would have nothing to do with you, right? Just wondering. Nice gag site by the way I get it..
ReplyDeleteEric and Dylan WERE NOT GAYYY!!! You clearly havent read Dylan's journals because if you did you would know that. Just because bullies called them fags in the hallways doesnt mean anything either. They were just to stupid to come up with anything else. And as far as the first comment goes I also have a fascination with Columbine and Eric and have also cried over him and would love to bring him back into this world along with Dylan and every victim. But I highly suggest not committing suicide over him or carve him into your arm.
ReplyDelete@ the first anonymous, good thing you said don't suggest a psychiatrist, because I might have lol. I've never seen one but think I should sometimes. On a serious note, I hope you don't really intend to kill yourself. :-\ I used to think about suicide a lot but not so much anymore.
ReplyDeleteMy interest in Eric has never been a problem for me, but I can't speak for other people. I just know that I've also read all the stuff he wrote and watched videos with him. I was thinking about him constantly for over a year, then it weared off at some point. I don't see anything wrong with being fascinated, if you're only thinking crazy stuff and not doing it.
I guess i did have a strong interest in him, but watching the vid columbine massacre on youtube and seeing how evil and unmerciful they were, id call myself stupid for even taking such an interest in a cold blooded murderer. Especially since the shooting in sandyhook, they make me sick. I hope they all rot in fuking hell. Fucking bastards. They shoulve jus done the world a favor and killed themselves, not those ppl.
ReplyDeleteHello! I completely agree! I live right by Columbine and I myself did not go there because I knew a lot of people that were going to go there and they bullied me a lot in middle school. I understand why he had so much hate, the people there were HORRIBLE. It makes me so sad what he had to go through. He was so intelligent and he had so much potential. Not to mention he was incredibly handsome. I think this obsession does have something to do with being able to relate.. and wanting to save him... It's so close to home.. I've been in the high school and to the memorial numerous times. When you go into the cafeteria you can feel death.. Like they're still there or something. It's just so horrible .. not being able to save Eric.. I wish someone would invent time travel!!! I love learning new things about Eric. I always listen to the music that he would.. I am guilty of buying it on itunes. May he rest in peace where no one could ever be so mean to him. I personally believe in God and I think that he forgives people. "The lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit" -psalm 34:18 I don't mean to get religious on you guys but I believe he was forgiven and I hope that he is at peace.. <3
ReplyDeleteHell yes! And right on!
DeleteI'm glad I'm not alone. I have an obsession with Eric and Dylan. I feel for them. I don't condone their actions, nor do I applaud what they did at Columbine in 1999, but I want to have a conversation with Eric. I often find myself asking questions in my head about him. I am in a relationship, but I find myself thinking about eric more than my boyfriend.. I type messages on my phone thinking Eric can see them. I don't feel "troubled", if you will, about my odd obsession, but I'm glad I'm not alone..
ReplyDeletethank you so much, Jade, for creating this site.
I too think about Eric and Dylan all the time.I have a boyfriend his name is Roger but I call him Eric.it bothers him but he knows I love Eric.sometimes I have conversations with eric in my head but im not crazy or anything.i keep thinking if I could go back in time I would save them so im working on a time machine.when im done I will be able to go back that day and pull them out of there then I can help them hide until they can get plastic surgery to disguise themselves.that is my plan and when im done with that then I will go back to trying to take over the world.
ReplyDeleteI found out about Columbine a few weeks ago, and immediately became obsessed with Eric :p mostly because he intrigues me. I think I undertsand him, but maybe I don't. Still, I think about him and Dylan a lot and I feel guilty about that, because I barely think about those who they killed. It's really nice to know I'm not the only one out there who feels like this. And he inspired my dream of becoming a clinical pyschologist, and I feel like maybe (hopefully) someday I'll be able to prove that he WASN'T a pyschopath, just deeply troubled.
ReplyDeleteThat bastered KILLED, MURDERED, and INJURED incoent people. Thats a fucking pyschopath and ur probably gona turn into one crazy ass. Damn i know there really is no such thing as normal people but fuck u people r something different, and its crazy that u people dont think ur crazy at some points. Really take in what these clowns have done to people like really take it in all sympathy aside for thos fools, and if u still feel the same there is a part missing in ur brain that keeps u sain, just like them. Fucking insain crazy asses.
DeleteBecoming obsessed with Columbine and Eric Harris didnt take long for me either. Within a couple of weeks I was already hooked on the subject and found him to be incredibly fascinating and intriguing. I'm not as fascintaed or intrigued with Dylan though. But there is just something about Eric and I cant figure out what it is. I also find him to be incredibly attracitve but that's not the reason why I'm so interested in him. But I agree that it's really nice to know there are other people in this world who feels the exact same way and it makes people feel less weird. I also think it's awesome that Eric inspired you to become a pyschologist. He certianly has an effect on people alive or not. I dont believe at all that he was a physcopath but deeply troubled. But thanks to Cullen people think otherwise. Deep down he was a good person and they were both retrievable.
ReplyDeleteThis is the dumbest site ever! Good god lock yourselves in the basement and never come out. Ohhhhh I'm so in love with a mass murdering corpse, I'm gonna kill myself on April 20th, GROW THE FUCK UP! Killing yourself won't get you to Eric you moron and you know what he would have just killed you too if you were there, what a great happy fucking fairytale! Jesus you guys are fucking sick.
ReplyDeleteIf eric was still here, you would go first anon. :) do you believe in God?
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Dumbest EVAAA. Ashes. ASHES.
DeleteI didn't realize growing up had anything, has any connection whatsoever, no ties with...about...hmmm...everything you just said.
BTW this is sooooo redeemed by "great happy fucking fairytale! Jesus' -- fairytale, Jesus. Ya dig, ya dig?
They did NOT shoot every person they came in contact with. Taunt? Absolutely. But think about that statement. 13 -- the number of victims. I think odds would be on the side of whomever you aimed that to.
You people r fucked LOL i agree with that person u guys should lock ur selfs in a basment and never come out. To the person with the most dumb ass comeback to try and defend them and what they did...you r just as fucked! Just turn your self in already before you pull stupid shit like they did.
DeleteExcuse me but if you think this is the dumbest site ever ( which it isnt) than why are you on it? There's nothing wrong or sick being fascinated by a mass murder and people even mentioned that they dont condone or applaud their actions. And I think and hope people wouldnt committ suicide on April 20th because of him and what happened.
ReplyDeleteIam also infatuated with Eric idk why or how. But I seriously need him out of my thoughts almost everyday I google him now. I kinda feel sick with myself wishing if I wouldve meet him in Middle School and made him mine he probley wouldnt did what he did. it seems hardly anyone loved him or atleast shown it. I blame the parents honestly how can u not pay attention. I live in Louisiana and plan to move to Littleton Colorado. Gosh I hope my Husband never finds out why. But I cant cheat with someone dead anyways ha. I wish he was here though I definitly wish it didnt take place the way it did.
ReplyDeleteLol your fucked and ur husband...well i just feel sorry for him..damn..having a crazy ass wife like not regular crazy ass wife but fucked in the head crazy ass wife..shit
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ReplyDeleteWhy the fuck would you be obsessed with him the kid was a fucking not the only one who deserved to die were those 2 assholes they didn't even kill bullies just innocent kids and now Eric and Dylan are in hell where they belong
ReplyDeletePlease calm down and try this again. There is no ill will toward you and your very different view -- to me. But Sir/Ma'am this is filled with so much anger I cant even understand it. This statement is a literary nightmare and expressionl of an ignorance not too far from these two you so openly put down.
DeleteA fucking what? A fucking not? I hate when these kids are so fucking not. Not's deserve to die...for thinking other people deserve...to die.
God really needs to stop making crazy people then tossing them into a volcano. Hey asshole, your god made them. If you want to blame someone, and if you give praise to god for the good, really look at that. It's like playing the sims; create them, control them, get pissed and bored with them, buy a pool...take the ladder. And watch the dumbass drown because they don't meet your qualifications. The ones YOU gave them.
Don't player hate on me. Player, player hate...on...somebody else.
ReplyDeleteDoes anyone still blog on here anymore?
ReplyDeletethe blogger died alana
DeleteIt's cool I am finding this blog now. I wish i would have found it 5 years ago. My fascination with Columbine began in 2009. Today, its not nearly like it use to be, but it had lasted for years. I thought about both gunmen all the time, what they would have thought about something, what they would have done in a situation, etc. I never felt I was "in love" with them but around 2009-2011 i knew i had a "crush" on Dylan. It was something I felt i couldnt talk to anyone about for obvious reasons. Today, even though my intrigue with it is not as severe as it use to be, and in all other aspects I am a functioning 26-year-old woman with an amazing one year old son, a boyfriend, a job, a car, and an apartment, thoughts of Columbine and/or the shooters are still there a lot. Its not uncommon for young women to latch on ronantically or sensually to a killer, it has happened many other times with many other killers. Its the mix of knowing they are/were dangerous, and then our nurturing nature thinking we could have made a difference for them and saved them.
ReplyDeleteewwwwwwwwwwwww i bet dylan uglybold and eric harryis had sexxxxxxxx ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww yucky!!!!!!!!!11
ReplyDeleteyeah dylan looked like a fucking weasel that was squeezed to where his eyes were bulging out of his head and grew a big fucking jew nose. and eric looks like a deformed midget faggot i would bully those sick gross fuckers too1
ReplyDeleteyeah lolz he probs had sex with his mom XD
ReplyDeletedont ever use the fucking XD face again u dumb fucking bitch slut. now get over here and fucking kiss me you faggot ass bitch.
DeleteYeah I agree, I find it funny that these ugly probably middle-aged obese losers can't get a love life and fall in love with a little psycho ugly midget faggot who shot up his school for being a little bitch. what a pussy!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI have an obsession with Eric Harris helppp
ReplyDeleteI love Eric Harris we were seriously meant to be
ReplyDeleteWhy Eric is so fucking ugly and obese
DeleteHi my name is Joe Beard and I'm in fucking love with Eric Harris, I jerk off to him to at night and thinking about him sucking my big fat cock.. what a naughty boy he is.. especially thinking about when he shot up his school just makes me cum within seconds. God I wish I could have destroyed his tight little asshole when he did that on that event like fuck me... mmmmmm
ReplyDeleteI know he is quite ugly but I have an obsession with him I love him idk why
ReplyDeleteya nasty
ReplyDeleteI love him
ReplyDeletewhy? He wasn't that interesting.
DeleteDo you think he was brave and ambitious for building bombs and carrying out a ruthless plan with no one stopping him?
So In a way, Eric and Dylan are these girls form of "therapy". In a way, thinking about being a savior to someone else's story is what appeals to them. Even though they may be too afraid to do it, you know.. out there in the world. There are tons of loner guys looking to shoot up their school, but no one is obsessed with them because that would mean actually having to live in this terrifying world. I notice a lot of these girls on here get really defensive about people calling them sick fucks. But what do you expect girls? You are choosing to publicly swoon over a dead guy because you find him cute. I think it does no good to even call these girls out because I don't think they've experienced hardcore, passionate love. Real love of sorts. Words don't do a thing to people that are very sensitive and get judgmental AT YOU for questioning why they idolize mass murderers on the internet. It's all weird, but I get it. They need someone to pretend to save in their heads. Denial of their own life and feeling un satisfied is a big part of the delusion. There's nothing wrong with being fascinated by the whole Columbine thing, but ya gotta think that these girls think their way into this so called "love" but they don't know a thing about being in love.. not at all.
ReplyDeleteYou bitch need help
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